As the fall approaches so does new beginnings. A new school year for many, including myself. Only this time it’s half-student, half-teacher. Just like any new beginning comes floodgates of emotion. Stress, fear, excitement, worry, joy, sorrow, the list goes on. As I struggle to come to terms with the chapter of college in my life closing I’m finding it hard fully embrace this new adventure of student-teaching that is upon me. I’m sure you all can relate. That bittersweet ending to a part of your life that has molded you, grown you, and changed you, replaced with something new and a little less “safe”.
I’ll admit my expectations for the semester are rather low comparing them to my pervious semesters of freedom of late nights, late mornings, and the ebb and flow of college courses that only took up 1/4 of my time. But in reality I don’t think that is anyway to experience life.
This semester I don’t want to just exist, I want to be submerged. I want to go deep into everyday experiencing every single thing God has to offer in His perfect plan for my life. I don’t want to just go through the emotions anticipating what is coming next. I think of the song Oceans by Hillsong UNITED. The lyrics go…
“Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander, and my faith will be made stronger in the presence of my Savior.”
Our faith cannot grow when we are wading ankle-deep, much less sinking in the sand. Because there we are safe, we are secure, we are simply existing waiting for the waves to brush against our body. It’s when we walk further, into the wide open sea where we learn to truly live in the presence of a Life Savor. It is there where we can actually engage and experience the life we are given to the absolute fullest. Taking in every joy, every heartache, every struggle, mountain and valley.
I know that Jesus can exceed my expectations if I have the mindset and attitude to allow Him. This season that you are in right now could be one of the most difficult or most rewarding of your entire life. The choice is ours to make. Are we going to take the risk and go deeper than we ever thought possible, or will you be found wading ankle-deep? We are never promised the journey to be easy, but it will always be worth it.